Tuesday, May 29, 2007
hmm im extremely heartbroken dat my 'bro' is gonna receive his sentence today..hw i wish i cud be there 4 him d way he was there 4 me..nw i'm gonna miss all the'blajar pandai2 nana' and 'jgn noti2 eh'..all will still be remembered though i wont hear it ever again..he had high hopes 4 me..i was hopeless bt he had faith in me..nt even my bro do dat..haizz...he protected me more than my boyfriend did..i'm gonna miss him lots..dats 4 sure
7:47 PM
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
As days pass by,i'm drifting deeper and deeper..people juz don see it..but fariana is indeed dying inside..where is the girl who is always confident,firm and always make everybody laugh..where is she..i nd her back..she belongs to me..i no longer cn recognise myself..it s like i've lost who i really am..what's left of me is juz a body with no soul..i can't go on like this..i hev to find myself back before everything goes from bad to worse..no matter i cnnt let anybody live my life nt even my mum..i had enough..
2:36 AM
Friday, May 04, 2007

hmm..as days pass by..i keep on thinkin if this real or reel...i think i can't handle my relationship but thank god my guy is a good person...maybe the problem lies with me..i'm juz too young..now i realize how naive i've been n how vulnarable i am plus how demanding i cn be..this is nt me..i want my life back..the gal who dont give a damn bout anythin except her studies...at last i've quit smoking...it wasnt dat hard though..now dat my mum had approve of me hevin a relationship,i tot it was the end..bt she wanted me to get married in 3yrs time..i'm nt yet 20 yet by then..oh god..i'm nt even prepared..is she for real or wat..cant blame her anyway coz she is stressed in her work..i became her punching bag eversince i was kid..
6:45 PM