Hmm..a new semester has start..a new start but definitely cant start a new life.. I'm still haunted by a bad past..I tot i cud juz put everything behind me.. I'm not only filled wit shame n guilt but also pain deep down..it breaks my heart to see a group of friends fighting because of me.. well i'm the victim n i shud've fight for rite..i cant help it wen my close pal was tryin to protect my pride..after all it was a huge problem
4:26 AM
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
Last week i turned 17..WOW!! Hw fast time flies..well looking back through my 17 years of life..i still couldnt figured out how i turn myself from the cut little girl who plays wit barbie dolls into a notorious wild child..I'm pretty sure my mum brought me up right..well it's definitely nothing to do wit my friends or siblings.. Can i say i was born to be bad..its juz dat i feel like i had to do somethin bad to do a good deed..without the intention of hurting any1..Every year on my Birthday i was nvr happy and i nvr celebrate it but thank god sum1 special brought me a bouquet of roses and a teddy bear to cheer me up this yr..haha..I hope happiness do last forever..I know dats not possible haha
9:41 AM
Hey ppl..I'm back..Oh yes my dear partner BL A.K.A Uncle dick..haha..i'm glad he gave you a special present for u to keep as SWEET memories..Ward 55 is a place i'll nvr forget..where cn u get patients who asks u for 4 great digits..well that was the fun part..i'm glad i get to experience the last office where i had to sponge one of the patients who died..it was quite heartbreaking for me coz somehow i juz felt she suffering alot..several days before she died she kept begging me to save her and she kept complaining of pain..i knew i cudnt do much and i juz felt sorry for her and her family..may she rest in peace..I guess dats all i'm gonna say bout dis attachment before i cry a river..
9:19 AM
Monday, October 06, 2008
Well ppl i'm back..oh yes about one of my favourite patient,Dr Syn A.K.A Mr Help me..It's my 1st encounter with that kind of patient..he's a little annoying but sweet at the same time..u guys muz be laughin at me now..he's not really crazy juz dat he had a blood clot in his head which wasnt removed and caused him to be rather impulsive.. He kept sayin he's gonna fall when the cordslides r up..juz a phobia i guess..but what kept me wondering was he called me 'Susan'.. haha..hmm...he always ask for help unneccessarily..well i use him for my case study of coz since i find him interesting and challenging..k gtg be back soon
2:25 AM
Anger
It's much easier to understand anger than to change it and reduce the behaviour that results from it.You are angry because you are.There are no ten steps to make your anger go away. Anger and agression can both destroy and create. Do not burden yourself with anger or try to walk the ungodly path of perfection.You will never make it.Your best lessons in life will not come from your great successes;they will come from making your mistakes and moving forward.
It's Me
well there's nothing much about me that i can say... two things people know bout me a good listener and observer...but they don really know who i really am... maybe i juz don wan them to know or i'm juz afraid to open up my heart to people... its hard for me to trust people...my nickname is nana.. nana is just my alterego... i think i have split personality ...i could be your worst nightmare or maybe the light of your life...you be the judge...all i can say is only GOD knows who i really am... obviously...
